Time For A Change.

January is the start of a new year. With the new year comes new opportunities. New chances and a bit of hope. Also, January is the time we make "New Year's Resolutions." To me, the word "resolution" is connected to not keeping them. So I have always wrote a list of goals. But this year, there is one that doesn't fit under the category of goals as well, so I will call it a resolution. After all, the word "resolution" is related to the word "resolve." In the context of New Year's resolutions, you are to resolve from something from the previous year. My resolution this year is to not date for one year. January 1st, until December 31st it will be just me, single and loving life. After a history of bad dates, boyfriends, broken promises and heartache, I have decided to take a year off. No more boys. You know it's bad when you think of being in a relationship and immediately a part of you screams "NO! Don't do it! It's a trap. You'll just get hurt again!!!" Because of that, I am taking a year off.
I am not here to bad mouth any of the guys I've ever dated. I would never want to hurt them. Yes, the relationship ending hurt, but that is expected. I don't want them to seem like horrible people. People make mistakes, people hurt people, but it allows us to grow. So this is my chance to grow. I can be able to grow into the person that would be able to be in a relationship and be the person another person would want to be with long term.
Also, this is a decision I made myself. It is coming from me. I have realized that I have lost a lot of mmy motivation. My self esteem had been chiseled away, and my confidence seems to be on vacation. So this year, I am taking something that brought me a lot of temporary happiness and a bit of pain out of my life. This is my chance to truly find myself. This is my chance to grow in my relationship with God. To truly live like one of my favorite verses, "She is clothed in strength and dignity and she laughs without fear of the future," Proverbs 31:25. This is my chance to do fun things without having to worry about a plus one. This is my chance to live without having to worry what others may think. This is my chance to live without being defined by a man. This is my chance to be the only person who defines myself. Some may say that this closes a lot of doors and opportunities for me. I say otherwise. I believe this opens a lot of doors. I won't have to worry about that other person. FREEDOM.
It's going to be great. I'm not bothered by my decision to be "off the market." I am scared, but it's the type of scared that is exciting. This will be fun.

I have this on one of my pinterest borads, and it cannot be anymore true!

Always,
-Just a girl, trying to take on the world.